Wow, the last time I published a post was 7 years ago...
So much had happened...
I got married, there was this pandemic and now endemic...
Time really flies like a roller coaster..
Just wanna throw some of my thoughts here and record down some of my journey...
Thinking Back
Didn't realize it was already 9 years since I accepted Christ, so many things have happened but one thing I am absolutely glad is that I am still committed to Him as much as I am committed to my husband haha...
God had been absolutely amazing throughout these years...
From changing our financial status, our family, our relationships and most importantly, Me as a person...
The truth is, being a Christian isn't an easy road after all... Sorry to burst your bubble but being a Christian is not at all easy especially living in this world full of deceit, selfishness, conflicts, greed and evil...
For instance, we are taught to be patient and to be giving to others... It is easier said than done...
How do you remain patient when someone keeps stepping on your nerves and crossing your limits? How to be selfless and giving without thinking of repay at all when you are financially tight yourself?
Every teaching in the bible is like a challenge ( that's what I think )
Whatever the world teaches me kind of like contradicts with what the Bible teaches...
In fact, it can be tiring being a Christian... From just looking after yourself, minding your own business...
God wants us to show concern and care for others and to love others around us even if they do not deserve...
So from someone who doesn't care about anything and just focuses on herself ( which used to be me )...
I need to start becoming someone who tries to help others whilst I'm busy juggling my own life...
Like honestly, it can be super exhausting and I have a very clear example...
When we start to show concern to issues around us and try to help out... we become even more busier!!
For instance, my own mother... having health issues, financial issues...
Not only do we need to support and help her financially, but we would always need to visit her and talk to her, spend time listening to her rants and so on...
Gosh, if I did not become a believer, to be real honest, I would not want to take part in any of this...
Perhaps I'll just briefly entertain her and buy her some supplements and meet with her once a month?
Yes, that is me. That used to be me. And would leave her to figure out a solution on her own... Couldn't be too bothered...
But ever since I try and learn to live out what God teaches, oh myyy...
It is challenging and tiring haha...
But I believe that it will all be worth it in the end for something greater...
This is just a part of the process... We are being moulded and changed...
So anyways, these past years I have changed and learned ALOT..
The importance of having relationship with people, treating people with sincerity, being humble, knowing your own limits and how vulnerable humans can be, appreciating time with others, building positive and healthy circle of friends, treating people with respect and putting yourself into their own shoes, learning to be aware of accidentally judging others by appearance ( it happens subconsciously, we humans always get deceived easily by what the eye sees ) and so much more!!
I shall end my post here, no idea what I just wrote haha.
